How we
quickly become irrelevant - when we fail to see the cloud move.
Growing up,
I was raised in an extended family, where being
born-again was held in high esteem. I saw the generation of the
"Tukutendereza" or "Bazukufu" and the ones
that followed immediately after them. When my elder brother Ed joined kings college Buddo, he returned home after
his first term a totally changed man; he came in with a new perspective to salvation, one that I
could associate with, and yet it was not any less compelling on Holiness.
I took that “version” of gospel on, and on January 19th 1986, at St. Francis Chapel at Makerere University, during an Anglican church Service I responded to the alter call, walked to the alter and gave my life
to Jesus. Then I begun my journey of understanding our LORD and Savior Jesus.
Growing up:
In 1987, I
joined Namilyango College and there I met my now long-time friend and brother Julius Wegoye. I attribute my significant spiritual growth and discipline to Julius mentor-ship. He impacted my life significantly and introduced
me to a number of spiritual disciplines that to date have not left me. I
remember we used to pray behind the pyramid, in the school sports field, at the school farm, behind the chemistry lab
and in “Miracle
Chambers” (Julius’ room) whenever we
had opportunity to (electricity those days was not as stable as it is today); so we used all blackout times to pray. We fasted
once a week as a team of about 5 prayer partners (including Adrian Braka and Samuel Kwiri, Baliddawa Hussein).
In 1992 I
joined Makerere High school where I now met a
bunch of passionate born again girls and boys. I was blessed to lead the
fellowship during my last year there and I remember the growth being
astronomical. One of the factors that triggered this growth was the miraculous
salvation of a brother in the LORD, Frank Rusa, whose salvation became a big testimony. Frank not
only got born again but was thrown straight into evangelism and ministering to
others in miracles, signs and wonders. I remember in that one year we grew from
a regular meeting of 30 people to one of over 200 people. I still remember
how we did our first ever mission trip as a fellowship (the
concept was not popular then); our
fellowship mobilized to go for three days to Namutamba TTC beyond Mityana (The Roads
were not that great then) to preach
and lead people to the LORD! boy was the harvest big!!! We scaled the entire TTC,
and surrounding villages preaching and leading many to the LORD. We crowned it off by preaching at the Anglican church in the
area. I recall clearly that the presence of God was massive on this trip.
Shortly
afterwards I joined Makerere University,
and in came the Main C.U as we used to call the central fellowship of believers
at the University, and the
LUMBOX FELLOWSHIP. It is amazing how people that fellowshiped in different congregations
and Christian faiths laid down their denominational crowns and enjoyed each
other in the LORD's presence. To date I still cherish those relationships.
Let me hold
it right there in order that I may highlight a
bit of what happened in between my alter experience in 1986 and my entry into University. During the holidays I used to pray at an Anglican
church in Mpererwe called St. Stephens church. We had some active Christian
leaders at the helm; I recall among many a one Dr. Luboga,
Mr. Mungherera, and many others like my former Headmaster at Makerere High
school Mr. Godfrey Njagala (R.I.P); these men and women led us quite well together with the provost Reverend Wandera. One of the more active and charismatic bits of this congregation was the
Youth ministry. We were allowed to
lead some Church services during school holidays, be involved in taking readings, and plan unique
presentations on high holidays like Christmas and Easter. I remember on this team Rebecca Namirembe, William the
organist, Joyce Nakate, my siblings Sarah
and Ruth among many other youths. This is where I learned to play guitar and
hone my skills. We were blessed
to minister to the congregation.
During this
period my only growth came from this Anglican church
fellowship of youths and significantly from the Namilyango fellowship under
different leaders like Bro. Bujingo William, Bro. Magambo Emmanuel, Bro.
Mujugira Andrew and many others. A lot of emphasis was made for personal
spiritual growth, prayer, fasting and reading the Bible for oneself. We had to
preach to our fellow students, carry out deliverance sessions for the
oppressed, do follow-up for new converts, and challenge each other
in righteous living. I also remember that we took on the responsibility to run the Anglican
church services at the College working with ministers from Bishops theological
college in Mukono.
Something
else that a totally helped us to harden was the knack the school leadership had for closing down the
fellowship and clamping down on our actions, apparently because too many kids were getting born
again (confused as they called it) and leaving
certain religious practices they had been brought up with. In fact, on many occasions fellowship was banned from college and we ended up having it, but underground in smaller cells or in the bushes around the school (We too came from the “Bush”). I am grateful for this early confrontation with
hatred for the full gospel, because it taught me how important personal growth
was and I grew into a relatively hardened Christian that was ready to die for
the gospel. Those lock-downs made us!
I started
going to mainstream born again churches in my High school days at Makerere High
school; my first church was Kampala Pentecostal church, now Watoto
central. Pastor Gary was and still is very solid on teaching; I learned
lots from sitting under his teaching ministry. I learned a lot about order and
excellence by just being a member of this congregation. All these learnings
have defined me to date.
So by the
time I was walking into Makerere University main C.U, I was a relatively mature Christian that could not be blown around by any wind of doctrine. Here at Main C.U and LUMBOX FELLOWSHIP I became an
active member, and served in many capacities: as a worship leader, as a faculty
papa, as a Hall fellowship leader, etc. I served even as i grew. Here I was
exposed to the mainstream born-again churches and did attend both Redeemed of
the LORD Makerere and Miracle Centre Rubaga (at the older location and a bit of the new).
It is here
that I started realizing how blessed I was to be part of what God was doing in
the world in my day. I got
exposed to global preachers and teachers, and to worship movements of the likes of Hosanna Integrity Integrity music bringing to us leaders like Ron Kenoly, Alvin Slaughter and many others. I was exposed to contemporary gospel music (Steve
Ochola and Joni Kasule, thanks to you). My life grew into the things of God. It was then that I realized, that just as the pillar of cloud and fire to the
children of Israel was, God operated
in seasons and that often times when He did something new He moved from the old, literally. I also realized, that having been part of such a
great heritage of born again people and experiences, many of the people I could
see in my past, people that passionately loved God and lived for him,
people whose walk with God I could not question, people that had been my role
models, they had stalled when the pillar of God had moved, and as a result they were left behind
and thus
sadly missed the new move of God.
Often times
listening to them, they were full of judgment of the new workings of God, which to them often looked diabolical: "they clap
their hands", " they drum in disrespect to God in their church services", "they play these guitars and
pianos and they dance
around and are not humble before God during prayers", "they shout on
top of their voices as if God cannot hear", "they use over night
prayers to commit immoral acts", etc. The accusations and criticisms went on and on. Meanwhile God worked in
us, and He transformed us. We who were inside the movement were moving more and
more into liberty and peace as the criticisms grew, and the chasm between “us
and them” grew ever wider with each party claiming to know God more and better
and claiming to speak for Him. During this time, it suddenly occurred to me that good intention was
not good enough in following after God.
I started lifting up a personal prayer that
to date I still pray, "...LORD do not ever leave me behind when you move; let me be humble enough, and eyes open enough to see your move and recognize it as such when you do;
let me not be ‘too experienced’ to despise your move; let me never be
too old to be sensitive to your move; let me never be left behind when the pillar moves..." This was so because having observed the huge heritage of God loving
people I had lived among, I realized that many of them had missed the Holy
Spirit movement of our day. They rejected everything that came with this movement,
the signs and wonders, the joy of salvation, the ministries of the prophetic
and much more. Albeit, they still loved the LORD with a passion!
Pharisaic
fetters:
One of the
biggest fetters any one can ever break is the pharisaic
fetter. It usually attacks mature Christians and those that have tarried
long in salvation. My simple definition of a Pharisee is that
he/she is one that is well tutored in certain doctrine(s) but is not
willing to understand and accept that our God keeps doing new things, yes even
unveiling new doctrine(s). It is said
that the road to hell is paved with good intentions, so is the journey to
becoming a Pharisee. Pharisees are often religious role models, passionate people, often almost zealots, and that is largely seen as a great attribute by most people that
pursue God. All this begins as
innocent passions for things God, then it grows into rules around them, and
then it becomes a closed box where all other thinking and views out side the box is wrong and ungodly.
Pharisees, in their
passion to please God and in their pursuit of righteous, never see this coming. The Pharisee is usually the last person to see themselves that way. They often are well tutored in
Christendom
doctrines and have
massive experiences of the hand of God in their personal lives. They are typically people of integrity. Their lives will exude God Himself as it were. The sad and sudden
departure is often around the thinking that our God has stopped doing things new. There is an assumption that all the truths have been unveiled,
inspite of a tenet that Paul teaches in 1 Corinthians 13 verses 9 to reading "9 For we know in part, and we prophesy in part....12 For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now
I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known". Thing to
note there is that whilst God remains the same yesterday, today and forever, the way we know His workings today does not remain the same; it is ever changing
forward to the benefit of the Church. He continuously is working His way into our
limited knowledge of Him, by revealing Himself piece by piece, until that day that the church
will know her master fully in glory.
As children of God we should not be caught in
the business of criticizing those that have gone before us, thinking we are
more noble than them. I remember sitting in a meeting where Apostle John Mulinde was speaking. He mentioned that he was not
the first to create a prayer mountain in Uganda, but that the former Arch
bishop of the Anglican church of Uganda, Bishop Henry Luke Orombi was the first to do so in
Nebbi; now that for me was shocking, but it was the truth. Everything that the
current evangelical or prophetic movement is enjoying today, is seated on the foundations that the Martin Luther's, the John Calvin's and other
Generals in the faith built. It's only that a bit more has been revealed to us, so we see more clearly than them on certain
things.
It is not wisdom for us today to attack
anything we do not understand simply because it looks strange and new to us. Let's provide due steer where we see obvious error but often
times the mistakes are from the pains of child birth for new things God is doing. More
recently for me has been the grace movement, the rise in the prophetic and
apostolic manifestations, the unveiling of the revelations of the love of God and many more to come with
ever increasing speed. The mistake as well is the carriers of these new things and revelations have not known how to manage and introduce
change in any community, so they have broken the older vessels. God has called
us to maturity and balance and to examine doctrines before we reject them
fully.
What we shall see more of is this as the young people that you led to the LORD
are becoming vessels of God in these new movements, simply because they are
more open to God to use for "New wine". God will not put new wine in
old wine skins as it will break them. That is why God avoids the "experienced
Christians" that have forgotten the place of Grace
where we should all habitually fall to refresh our views and hearts. If God
poured this new stuff into most of us we would go apostate and be destroyed. I have seen God
use men and women I led to Him and mentored to growth, in ways I never even knew about.
May God help us to see the cloud when it moves, and
to have the grace to get up and walk after it when we see it move inspite of our current comfort. May we not be so comfortable with the old wine, that we loose
flexibility for the new wine that God is pouring out, or else, in His love for us we may
be left out of the new move, and in our darkness, we may be caught in ever increasing battles fighting the work of God, battles
we shall never win.
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ReplyDeleteA few blogs hit me too deep like this one. I'll have to read this again and again.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Pastor.
Insightful. Thanks Pastor
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Paul for this blog. I have read it with an open heart and felt tears in my eyes and it pushes one into self examination as Paul says in 2 Corinthians 13:5. My prayer is that I do not reach a level where I think I have got it all in God, but humble myself to accept more of him.
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